Saturday, December 16, 2006
what's up with me??
taking one tablet of vitamin C a day isn't enough for the activities that i'm doing at present. i've been very busy with work, doing video, layout and writing stuff. with all these things in my hand, im starting to feel the pressure of a being a professional. and wtf!!..the manifestations of stress is growing. i hope you know what i mean (especially you, krisel and kate..hahaha). but the hell with it, i am certainly well compensated! :Paside from work, ive been going out lately..out of town trips, clubbin (all of which involves drinking and other vices) and a number of religious endeavors..its kinda paradoxical no? i realized that i can't live a 'double standard' life forever. i have to choose which side i'm really going to be involved with. shessh..i don't want this log to be serious..so i should stop!! wahaha!!photoshoots..i really love them..been playing a lot with my digital camera and kept on asking my friends to pose for me. i already had 3 and i can't wait till the next shoot. this one's going to be a bit daring..not that the models are gonna strip..but mark thought of making lesbianism as our theme. kate already asked her friends to model and good thing they agreed. i am thinking of having coby in the shoot to make up with the hassle i gave him coz the collection we previously planned was cancelled..well, temporarily lang siguro.. anyway, i hope this shoot turns out to be great because im planning to add it in my portfolio.christmas parties..i have to attend 6 of them!! party at work, church, relatives-mother side, relatives-father side, barkada and the other barkada..haay.. one of these christmas parties is going to be held at my house. hassle grabe, to think that ate neneng, one of our kasambahay already left for davao, entertaining lots of guests would be very hard since i have to help in cleaning up afterwards. but, come to think of it, its christmas..we have to sacrifice a bit (as if im not doing it with other things).i already started shopping for chritsmas gifts. I bought 2 caps for my monitos, a magenta slim wallet for mom, a set of veeerrryy expensive hankies for dad (which made me stupid because i bought them), 3 items from body shop, and a motorola SLVR for me!! hahaha!! yesterday, i helped tita esther in wrapping her gifts. she demanded that i make paper bags out of gift wrappers. grabe!! i realized that wrapping presents and making paper bags is not that easy. sakit sa kamay! okay lang..she gave me one hundred pesos of share-a-load as payment..hahaha..babaw ko noh? at least, i have 10 more days of unlimitext. wahahaha!ohh..i think that is a nice idea...why don't i just give my friends share-a-load as my christmas gift? by doing that, i don't have to shop anymore and save my feet from blisters!! wahahhahaha!!! mamatay kayo sa kakuriputan!!
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Friday, December 01, 2006
On.Happiness
take a good look at me now. can you see any difference? did something change? even i can't seem to figure if there was really a change in me. all i know is that i am enjoying my life right now. from the smallest things to the big ones, i won't miss any chance to make myself Happy. lately, i find myself out at night. strolling around the city, to places where people do nothing but dine, drink, chat, and drive themselves crazy as the music spins. weeknights are usually spent with mark, marvin and joshua girl..where caffeine rush was a hit, and oh..have you ever experienced hanging out at coffee bean while drinking coffee from starbucks and ended up transferring the starbucks coffee to coffee bean cups? this is for the sake of the 'planner'! i forced myself to drink 21 cups of coffee for 2 weeks just to get that spark hope commemorative planner..and im sooooo (exaggerate the 'so' to establish the genuine cheer) happy coz i already have one!saturday nights are usually spent either with cousins or college friends at eastwood where drinking would be non-stop (thanks to amu when she treated us). The conversations are so fun that laughing would be too hard to resist. another fun thing during saturdays are my cousin's facials. Watching her facial session is really exciting. I don't know what's in me but i have this excitement whenever i see the puss coming out of her face while the 'facial girl' (i don't know what to call her) pricks and forces those impurities away form her skin. anyway, i just shared this part because this also makes me Happy.am i the B.I. among my circle of friends? they always say that and i still can't figure why im one. is it so B.I.ish to persuade someone to drink alcohol even if he/she doesn't? am i being a bad influence when i advice an officemate to skip work and take long snacks instead? is it bad to force someone to smoke when you're just trying to add 'first time experiences' on her list? OKAY, i'm guilty! i know that it is bad right from the very start. But what can i do? they always give in to my persuasion skills. haha!! being a 'B.I.' makes me Happy and i can't do anything about it. Wait, i guess i have to stop this irrational act for my own good. Now let's get serious...Happiness is a feeling everyone wants. Some get it for free, some get it without exerting much effort, while some struggle just to grab even a little dose of this delightful high. It is very obscure why some people can't seem to find the perfect happiness. that is, if there's really something you could call perfect. Just when you thought that you could finally be happy, fate comes in, twists the knob a little and you'll realize that he has already taken it from you. As for me, i'm happy now, i just don't know how long it would last.
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