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Friday, December 01, 2006

On.Happiness

take a good look at me now. can you see any difference? did something change? even i can't seem to figure if there was really a change in me. all i know is that i am enjoying my life right now. from the smallest things to the big ones, i won't miss any chance to make myself Happy. lately, i find myself out at night. strolling around the city, to places where people do nothing but dine, drink, chat, and drive themselves crazy as the music spins. weeknights are usually spent with mark, marvin and joshua girl..where caffeine rush was a hit, and oh..have you ever experienced hanging out at coffee bean while drinking coffee from starbucks and ended up transferring the starbucks coffee to coffee bean cups? this is for the sake of the 'planner'! i forced myself to drink 21 cups of coffee for 2 weeks just to get that spark hope commemorative planner..and im sooooo (exaggerate the 'so' to establish the genuine cheer) happy coz i already have one!

saturday nights are usually spent either with cousins or college friends at eastwood where drinking would be non-stop (thanks to amu when she treated us). The conversations are so fun that laughing would be too hard to resist. another fun thing during saturdays are my cousin's facials. Watching her facial session is really exciting. I don't know what's in me but i have this excitement whenever i see the puss coming out of her face while the 'facial girl' (i don't know what to call her) pricks and forces those impurities away form her skin. anyway, i just shared this part because this also makes me Happy.

am i the B.I. among my circle of friends? they always say that and i still can't figure why im one. is it so B.I.ish to persuade someone to drink alcohol even if he/she doesn't? am i being a bad influence when i advice an officemate to skip work and take long snacks instead? is it bad to force someone to smoke when you're just trying to add 'first time experiences' on her list? OKAY, i'm guilty! i know that it is bad right from the very start. But what can i do? they always give in to my persuasion skills. haha!! being a 'B.I.' makes me Happy and i can't do anything about it. Wait, i guess i have to stop this irrational act for my own good. Now let's get serious...

Happiness is a feeling everyone wants. Some get it for free, some get it without exerting much effort, while some struggle just to grab even a little dose of this delightful high. It is very obscure why some people can't seem to find the perfect happiness. that is, if there's really something you could call perfect. Just when you thought that you could finally be happy, fate comes in, twists the knob a little and you'll realize that he has already taken it from you. As for me, i'm happy now, i just don't know how long it would last.

:: 2 ang nag-amok. come on.rant! mag-amok ka din.
:: 8:09 PM

2 Comments:

can i just say, nakakahiya yung nangyari sa coffee bean? buti nalang di tinanong sakin kung kilala kita kasi kung nagkataon sasabihin kong kakakilala ko lang sayo that night. haha joke lang! ;p

we should go out more often. nakakamiss. 1 week na ata tayong di nagkikita. haha parang ang tagal na
eh noh. hehe

wallow in the feeling of happiness nalang. sometimes, it's not important to delve in and figure out why you are happy, you just might get disappointed na wala kang mahanap na sagot. but more than that, mas mahalaga kung ano ang gagawin mo sa happiness na yan. use it as a drive or whatever. to find more happiness.

happiness is just momentary. but there is joy in remembering, which never wanes. there is some sort of peace in knowing and treasuring the moments of utter happiness. so i guess there is still hope. even if life is a continuum of pain, as long as we remember, we find contrast.

and ultimately, it all boils down to living your life, in doing what you think is right at that moment, and doing what you are willing, and wanting, to live with. i guess as long as you remain in control of your own life, it is impossible to be sad.

By markdimaisip, at Sunday, December 03, 2006 6:33:00 PM
uy je! hahaha!!! amokero ka na din pala ngayon!! like me!! hahah!!! wag ka nga mang-b.i, ng tao!! wahaha!! at oo.. nagmamana ako sa kalandian mo!wahaha!!

By Anonymous, at Wednesday, December 06, 2006 8:44:00 AM